The whole year long
there are more private day
that we could covet
or let go
in public places,
but love
is the only sure way
out of our selves
and into each other.
Biblical Reflections and Love Poems of EFREN DLC AGBULOS Copyright2002,2008,2009,2010 by Efren de la Cruz Agbulos (Manila, Philippines) e-mail: tagailog178@yahoo.com.ph
The Gospel
Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the GOSPEL which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand; By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain. For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:
[Paul, writing to Christians @ Corinth, 1 Cor. 15:1-4]
The whole year long
there are more private day
that we could covet
or let go
in public places,
but love
is the only sure way
out of our selves
and into each other.
You did not come
just at the beginning of our love.
You were there
in the middle
and at the end
of it all.
Who found who
I can’t remember.
That’s not important now.
Love has brought
us to a place
where we can only overstay
but never leave.
February and June
have to give way
to the latter part of the year,
and as I draw near to you
I know that December shall
be waiting expectantly for us
in the shadow of early November.
We are in season
from month to month,
in harmony with love
that floats in the daytime
and lingers to the moment
when it is no longer
worthwhile to say “goodbye,”
or hurry another cycle of years.
Distant in your own world
or one with me in the ourskirts
of another restless month,
you may draw nearer now,
closer than you had ever moved
towards your self.
as the September wind,
as you move about
your newly-ordained day,
happy that the night is over
and a new one is on its way.
I can assure you that
another week
will not bring you
any closer to me,
for no day is as good
as the one before it,
and I intend to keep
it that way,
so let us move lazily
then into the morning
and punctuate it
with memories
of yesterday.
with the years,
I may never remember
your name
but I shall never forget
your voice.
I will recognize it as my own
in the streets of this my city.
How can it fade
from the walls
of my memory?
What can take its place
as secured as breath
itself,
when it has spoken
to me of love
and laughter
and song
and solitude?
It was the first
and the last
I heard from you.
that has led us
to our selves
and not away.
It’s not meant
to cover distances
but what could take us
by leaps and bounds
from year to year,
where the only passport
is the need to give,
and stopovers unannounced
and bring you to me
a little closer
every day.
One day
leads to another,
so we’ll not respect
too many boundaries
or landmarks
of rain and sunshine
on our trips
up chocolate hills
down green meadows,
taking our time
to be
what we could not have been
yesterday
or become
tomorrow.
fix smiling dolls for poor children;
allow me to play the games
of innocent faces.
The children are frolicking
under the shade of a tree,
leaving behind the silhouettes of
their toys.
No one is without a toy;
a piece of stick’s enough for a boy.
Take me from street to street
and show me the spot where walls meet.
every hour shared with you
in sequence,
each minute
played out like classical music
to the last
note,
and in numerical symbols
draws me towards
you.
up close and personal,
not that it’s just a choice,
but that it will never
happen again,
the love, I mean,
not the choice,
to a part of you,
the whole of me.
in the direction of the wind,
even the waves,
and leaves are being tossed
like bubbles and foam upon rock.
The wind reaches you
before my dreams do,
but I reckon they just might fade
along the way.
I seldom visit the old benches now
because I find no shelter in them
without you.
I had to step back
like a portrait painter
to check on perspective
and balance,
to feel,
if from afar,
you’d be warmer
on the horizon
than on the
foreground.
exchanged between us
were private as the rain.
Our sharing of our selves
was like scattered showers
here and there,
even more so private
because they were between us
alone.
I have taken you
above the clouds,
beyond the rain,
and you have
brought me back
to yourself,
the private you.
and rainy places
with all the sunshine I’ve known,
hoped for
and imagined.
We’ll do only the things
that matter
in the middle of the
season of rain
and nothing more.
Tonight
we’ll be punctual
as the stars,
sure and deliberate
with our words and ways
and have the assurance
that we’d see and hear
the same things again
in one lifetime
before the dawn of our
renaissance years.
as I commit to words
my gratitude
that you’ve introduced
to me
love again.
Can I tell you now
that as sure as the morning
moves in
and the day is warm
I’ll never doubt
your promises,
even the ones
you haven’t made?
and unknown
the gift of yourself
for so many summers now
that there’s no more need
to keep tab
of birthdays and holidays,
because even my yesterday
or your tomorrow
is no guarantee
that I can understand
you more.
It is enough that
my knowledge of you
remains a private collection
of endless beginnings
and a love that endures,
and I have no aim
no purpose
but what could take us across
the hills and valleys
of life.
or grandfather clock
could dictate
my time with you.
No compass
could direct me
to where you are,
even in the dark.
I believe I know
where your heart is
and where your love
dwells.
I could paint
a portrait of you
and never miss
a smile,
a laughter,
a dream,
because a whole picture
of you
is important for me
to understand myself.